November 2023
Nate Jacob
thuswrotenate@gmail.com
thuswrotenate@gmail.com
Bio Note: I tend to write about my home life, usually as a way of figuring out how well I am doing or have done in life. I get mixed results, but thankfully, my six kids and my wife are happy, healthy, and they continue to be willing to stand near me in public spaces, so I guess you could say I've got that going for me! I'm relatively rarely published, perhaps out of laziness as much as any other reason, but you may find some of my work at ratsassreview.net, and forthcoming in Rattle Magazine next year.
But What If You Do?
If you don’t finish Wordle, does it count as a loss? Does the incomplete word hang over you, a partial subtitle to your tragicomic life? Is it the entirety of your unauthorized biography, the shortest and least readable tell-all ever? Will it have been ghost-written by old Mrs. Hasselback, your fourth-grade teacher who claimed she liked you, but who never confessed your genius aloud when you most needed your parents to hear it? And what if you don’t find joy in the snow? Will you never wear boots, even if you need them? The idea of cold, wet toes will keep you shut in, until your father forces you out into the cold with bread sacks between two pairs of socks, your too-tight shoes constricting blood flow, and you still arrive to school with cold, wet feet, plus the shame of yeasty and crumby toes. If you don’t forgive him, will you go to Hell? Will you arrive there wordless and barefoot, unable to defend yourself to Satan’s legal team, who hold their narrow noses high in the sulfur air and look down in feigned patience at you, forever scorching feet across coals as if it could save you? How were you to know that the smell of baking toes would be such an offense to old Lucifer himself? Man cannot live by bread alone, but by every word, except ironically enough, that single unfinished wordle, which looms like the executioner’s swinging blade, counted to you as the ultimate, damning loss.
Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow and Grandpa
"People were always getting ready for tomorrow. I didn’t believe in that. Tomorrow wasn’t getting ready for them. It didn’t even know they were there." —from The Road by Cormac McCarthy The day came and went, and no one even noticed, as though lightless sunrise led directly into sunset and nobody looked up wondering where Tuesday went. Tuesdays didn’t matter to anyone anymore, apparently. It simply had none of the cachet of Wednesday, hump day, with that tummy tickling bottoming out, leading us all into the best day of the workweek, Thursday he claimed, when everyone worked harder to get the weekend started ahead of time, before the calendar could notice. People were always getting ready for Tomorrow. One would think that a personal philosophy shared by a grandfather to his granddaughter over his very best specialty, a no-no breakfast of waffles and semi-softened vanilla ice cream, topped as well with the syrup of his homeland would be as sweet as the meal, sappy even. Instead, this four-year-old angel with the blondest halo was darkly warned against every imaginable danger as though simply by warning her he had saved her. I never scared my kids straight. I didn’t believe in that. But for the old man, wrapped tight in fear and mistrust there was rarely enough of every Today for him to adequately concern himself with everything gone mad in the disintegrating light of Yesterday. Much less time to stew and to hem and haw over the promise of darkness to come Tomorrow. It was as if Tomorrow was forever looming above and ahead, an omen in and of itself like some vulture circling the skies, measuring his and our future corpses. Tomorrow wasn’t getting ready for them, nor for us. Tomorrow wasn’t even aware of him, not at the moment, because Tomorrow never looks back, neither to Today nor to Yesterday, a fact that left the old man more upset, flummoxed and flabbergasted, he would say, that there was simply no measurable future in living if the living was to be so fraught with every danger that he could imagine, confirmed by the radiomen whose messages were clearest when the skies were darkest. Tomorrow wanted nothing to do with their messaging. My daughter agreed. Tomorrow didn’t even know they were there.
©2023 Nate Jacob
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