Drug addict.
On drugs right now, in fact.
If I don't have ...
each day within hours of waking,
my body physiologically revolts
basic functions like moving a muscle become painful beyond trying. 
A life of sin that we accept as normal,
Our collective consumer reality.
Me, an addict since age 14.
& I can only imagine the Hell heroin brings, 
if this is caffeine reality.
Welcome to the daily grind.
& anything & everything is a gateway drug to a brain
& it’s best not to even get started.

I struggle with who & when & what’s really good & right 
as I succumb to each human fallacy
as I search for meaning &…
…good times and great oldies…
…a jingle of truth to the human brain…
…of remembrance & a myth to be found…
…cosmological kindness…
…of whatever you call it…
…I’ll be here now…