January 2023
J. R. Solonche
jrsolonche@gmail.com
jrsolonche@gmail.com
Bio Note: Nominated for the National Book Award and nominated three times for the Pulitzer Prize, I am the author of 29 books of poetry, most recently Selected Poems 2002-2021, The Lost Notebook of Zhao Li, and It’s About Time.
Truth
I asked my mathematician friend if mathematics is an invention or a discovery, for I had been wondering about it a long time. It’s both, he said. First it was a discovery and then it was an invention. I thought so, I said. It’s just like poetry, which first was a discovery and then was an invention, except that poetry keeps reinventing itself while mathematics doesn’t. It’s done. That’s because mathematics has already discovered the truth, so it doesn’t need to keep reinventing itself as poetry does, he said. The trouble is that you poets keep looking for the truth in the wrong places. Oh, where’s that? I said. In your hearts, he said. You’ll never find the truth there. You’ll only keep finding the same old lies. Maybe so, I said. But you have to admit that you guys need us. For what? We already have our one beautiful truth, he said. Yes, I said. But you need us and our thousands of beautiful lies to let you bear your one and only beautiful truth.
I Hate ‘I Can’t Complain’
“How are you?” I ask a neighbor. “Oh, I can’t complain,” he says. I hate when he says that. It’s not true. I’ve heard him complain to Pete the postmaster in the post office. “How are you?” I ask another neighbor. “Oh, I can’t complain,” she says. I hate when she says that. It’s not true. I’ve heard her complain to the librarian in the library. I know it’s simply a greeting. I know we are not supposed to take it seriously. I know we’re supposed to smile and go on our way. But sometimes I wish they would complain. I’m a good listener. I’ll listen to their marriage woes. I’ll listen to their health problems. I’ll listen to them carry on about their grown children. I’ll listen to them gripe about taxes. I was a psychology major before I switched to English. Besides it will give me an excuse to complain to them. I’m tired of listening to me complain to no one but myself .
Saturday
Frank came to clean the place, pick up branches, blow leaves. My mother died last week, he said. Oh, I’m sorry, Frank, I said. She died in her sleep. She was 89, he said. She lived a full life, I said. It was peaceful in her sleep, he said. That’s the best way. In your sleep, I said. She lived a full life, he said. I saw her more in the nursing home than I saw her for thirty years, he said. I understand. The yard looks good, I said. But you have to so something about this, he said, pointing to the bare ground in front. The rain coming down the back is washing away the soil and the grass. I see that. I should tend to that, I said. You really need to or you’ll have no lawn this summer, he said. Thanks. I’ll tend to it. Sorry about your mom, I said. Thanks. It’s okay. I’m okay. We’re okay. She was 89. She lived a full life. She died in her sleep. Real peaceful. I hope I go like that. In my sleep. Don’t forget the lawn. And the garden needs work, too. Don’t forget the garden, he said. I won’t forget, I said.
©2023 J. R. Solonche
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