March 2022
Bio Note: Although I am out on a medical leave, I still officially work in the mental hospital, where this poem came about. The poem appears in my recent collection Notes to the Mental Hospital Timekeeper (Kelsay Books, 2019). I wrote it to/for a suicidal, self-harming adolescent girl, who had just lived through another unsuccessful placement with a foster family. The Prachya Review, a Bangladeshi on-line literary review, where it first appeared is now defunct. I hope the young lady isn’t.
Fairy Tale for a Young Inpatient
Down, down, way down, at the very bottom of the old wishing well, the one with the broken crank, no rope, and no pail, the one still covered by the quaint, scant roof meant to keep other things out, down, down to where the memories you keep lie at the bottom like tarnished pennies, one day, there will appear a splendid fish, as red and as gold as your fabulous cape, my princess, my forlorn one. You will see it swim in the deep, distorting murk we all wish to forget, fluttering its fins like a fledgling, testing its way out of the well, and you will drop a line, a strangling thread from your cape, unspun in desperation, trying, once more, to reach beyond the bottom to where there are no memories. But, you will catch this fish, instead, reeling it in like a new story worth telling, unnoticed until now, though it has always been there flickering about between the dull coins. And after you pull up this fish with its sparkling gossamer fins you will wrap it gently in the matching colors of your cape, carry it in your scarred arms all the way up the narrow, insufficient pass with its many twists and turns, along the whole crueltyof that journey, then finally down the other side to a calm place, where the lake water licks the shore in little waves. There, you will kneel down and surrender all that you’ve carried into that clear water, stretching yourself out to swim with the fish, the beautiful one you rescued.
Originally published in The Prachya Review
©2022 Tim Mayo
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