She wanted a used handbag made of straw
a large handbag made of worn straw
brown where the wear created bruises of use
or age spots of wisdom from long ago travel
or birthmarks of straw’s breaking ground
in the farmer’s field of its childhood.

She did not want the history that grimes
the inside of the bag, the barrette or clip
keeping someone else’s hair in place
while her life teetered out of control
or the lip gloss for another date
that meant she hadn’t held on to the last one
or the wadded Kleenex with saline
of tears sewn into the tissue by time.

She wanted a handbag to open
like a tide pool washed by incoming waves
filling with the small coins of her life
with two handles not quite even
to represent the slight imbalance
between the right and left sides of her hips
and her tendency towards hysteria
in both laughter and remorse.

She wanted a handbag made of straw
knitted and strong to pull her
into a future woven and resilient
a flower on the side a reminder
of her pluck and the luck that she needed
She wanted a handbag made of straw,
a gold crown she could afford.

I found a round straw hat turned upside down
on the wild grass of western Wyoming,
a great donation plate
with a pretty weave to catch coin 
for the ravens resting there.

The hat does not wither and wilt in the rain 
like an old fedora, the way in life 
an old detective finds the past 
has superseded the future.

It’s not a cap, 
pulled down to escape 
the look of others, or to have 
a look that others want to escape.

It doesn’t speak of baseball, 
bears no insignia of loyalty or brand 
except the gift of toquilla 
and the hands that wove it.

It’s not a tam 
or beret, a cover 
for warmth.  It’s got a brim 
to shed sunshine and rain, 

vents in the weave to let 
my idle thoughts vanish, 
then let them find their way 
back into circulation.