December 2021
Alan Walowitz
ajwal328@gmail.com
ajwal328@gmail.com
Author's Note: I've tried very hard not to publish "White Noise" again. My wife doesn't appreciate this poem, but when I read it again recently, after letting it sit unread for a year, I still liked it. At the end of the year, we can't help but want to give everything we love a second life, another go round the sun. But just to be certain, please don't tell her that "White Noise" appears in December's Verse-Virtual.
White Noise
My wife’s been known to sing all day as her father did before, which might be how she learned. Nice enough to hear, I guess, what’s stuck inside her head, but drives me nuts sometimes when all I want is a quiet place where the words I try to write won’t blur inside my head and might nearly mean what I pretend. Maybe this her own white noise so she doesn’t have to hear me live alone inside my own, which drives her nuts enough she finally has to go to bed. She even sometimes sings in sleep which is hard to understand. But now I want to hear the song because, I figure, like a dream, this is what she really thinks of me, or of our life, though I suppose I could have asked. But it doesn’t quite come clear even when I draw so close which might or might not be her fondest wish. Sing to me, I say, softly—not a demand. And sharp as someone dead asleep might ever say, she says: Shush, for God’s sake. Would you just let me sing?
Originally published in Live Encounters
©2021 Alan Walowitz
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