Aerial Reconnaissance

 
Flying into Tulsa, looking at the tiny trees, toy houses from the air,
arriving at a place I’ve never been.  Flat as a table.  I have no memory
to bring me here, no frame of reference in my data base, no place
like this in the east, rolling hills and blue mountains, trees turning red
and orange and yellow all at once, where anything seems possible
if ordinary leaves can change to something magical like that.  The battle
 
between summer and fall reaches its final conclusion.  The battles
in the Middle East blunder on, mistake on top of mistake.  The air
compresses in thunder clouds, mortar and dust rising; what possible
lung diseases rasp ahead?  Night sweats, blackouts, flashbacks, memories
our soldiers imprint on their hearts, reprint in the books of their lives.  E-mails read
and re-read, passed around the table, shown to neighbors, friends.  Hard to place
 
a value on one life, when life is cheap.  On this hillside, this place
I love, the days roll on, blue and gold; apples ripen.  The battle
of tree and gravity comes to the usual end:  red
apples, green lawn, happy deer.  Some days, we see a fox.  The air,
heavy with fruit, should be bottled for a cold night when the memory
of gardening, turning over soil, miracle of seed to sprout, seems impossible.
 
Back in Baghdad, the brown and beige days grind on.  Is it possible
that nothing can change?  Politicians continue to blather.  Where can we place
the blame?  The hollow rhetoric, convenient amnesia, no memory
of that last disaster, Vietnam.  You’d think we’d learned, but no.  So the battle-
ground becomes the ballot box, just after Halloween, the air
redolent with sugar and decay.  Pumpkins fall inward.  Blue state, Red
 
state, the divisions grow wider, haves and have-nots, and who has read
the fine print carefully enough?  Surely not the insurgents, who use every possibility
to plant bombs, blow up check points, careen into buildings, fill the air
with smoke and debris.  If the city is uninhabitable, who wins?  Whose place
does history bookmark?  Is winning worth it if you lose it all?  Another battalion
vanishes in the desert.  Pipelines explode, oil burns blue.  Memory
 
and shrapnel mingle in the dust.  A soldier cleans his gun, the memory
of home, hunting season, uncles and father out for deer, snow on the ground, red
seeping out of a wound.  Easier to kill with modern weapons, like mock battles
in a video game.  Don’t think of families around a table, the empty chair.  Is it possible
that nothing’s been accomplished, that democracy is just a word?  Whose place
is it, to tell others how to live?  At home, baking turkeys, pumpkin pies, sweeten the air.
 
From the air, all lands are one land, no borders, artificial boundaries scar the fields,
and home’s the only place we want to be.  Red rover, red rover, won’t you come over? 
No more battles, just the impossible:  peace in our time, not just its memory.
        

first published in Verse Wisconsin