July 2015
A native of Johnstown, NY, I've lived in Ripon, WI for the past 28 years, where I teach literature and writing at Ripon College. I've published six collections of poetry, including Stutter Monkand Second Wind; I also co-edited (with Kate Sontag) the essay anthology After Confession: Poetry as Confession. Essays, reviews, and individual poems have appeared widely, both in print and online. In recent years I've spent nearly as much time on photography as poetry. A gallery of my work is online here: http://instagram.com/doctorjazz
Doing the Numbers: A Gravestone |
David
Died Dec. 9, 1896
Aged 13 yrs.
Benjamine
Died Nov. 10, 1894
Aged 6 Mos.
Mary
Died Apr 24, 1897
Aged 21 days
Died Dec. 9, 1896
Aged 13 yrs.
Benjamine
Died Nov. 10, 1894
Aged 6 Mos.
Mary
Died Apr 24, 1897
Aged 21 days
To add insult to injury, someone in our century
has kicked over their stone. It lies pale as moon in November grass near its jagged marble base which even a fool or an atheist can tell fits the uprooted slab exactly. We try to be precise even in death, carving the years, the months, the days resolutely into stone, this litany of woe reduced now to numbers because what else endures beyond the numbers of our days? Two centuries have turned since these children sickened and were planted in the poor soil of memory—first baby Benjamine, then David who was old enough to feel the grief of Ben like heavy stones in his pocket, two boys with their sturdy Biblical names gone before they could leave a mark on anything, not the oaks of this hillside, not the scent of corn steaming, not the voices of the choir lifted above the dust motes and second-hand sun. And then, next year, the infant Mary, gone before she knew anything, who never met either brother, though David would have seen the swelling of his mother's belly, and perhaps counted the months and wondered, as I do, at the mystery numbers point to and conceal, the mystery mothers, even today, are unlikely to speak of to a boy so young, too young to guess a mother's pangs or flaring joys, too young to feel the scriptural weight of a virgin name, or the way days turn to months, then seasons to the fullness of years if you are lucky, and not if you are not. Lost also now are the family name and any news of father, mother, other sisters and brothers of the three marked here—perhaps another stone elsewhere identifies them? Someone lived to buy and plant this stone in 1896, marking the shared graves of David and Benjamine, then adding Mary like a terrible afterthought the next year— but then silence, though possibly another sister survived, who would have felt the silence like a busy noise in the crow-ridden trees and rows of corn stubble, leaves falling everywhere in November wind like the numberless dead and their names like water on the tongue. |
©2015 David Graham