December 2015
Barbara Crooker
bcrooker@ix.netcom.com
bcrooker@ix.netcom.com
…in sadness and solidarity—
In Paris
A rectangle of light spills in the high window over the porcelain tub in our small hôtel, and a blackbird, a merle, is singing his strange chanson, r’s swallowed in the back of his throat, those palate- ringing u’s: dur, truffes, du fluide, tu penses. At the rue de Varenne, Rodin’s Thinker is still stuck in the rose garden, his bronze thoughts lost in translation. Across the lawn, in a smaller version, he broods above les Portes d’Enfer: Abandon hope, all ye who enter. Underneath, eternity’s lovers twine about each other, the embrace of the damned, yearn and long but never touch, all that unattainable flesh. The twisting lovers try to hold on even as they are torn away or melt backwards into the liquid bronze night, condemned to writhe in tortured high relief. But we are here, in our middle-aged imperfect bodies, walking hand in hand under an allée of plane trees in the dazzled light, and my desire for you, even after all these years, is a marc, an eau-de-vie, hot and heady in the blood. High above us, chimney swifts, les martinets, take up their nightly chorus, shrieking as they swoop and dive for insects in the long dusk. Praise the small cage of the elevator that carries us to our chambre. Praise my four- chambered heart, still beating; praise your gall bladder, unremoved. O Paris, city of café noir and vin rouge, where even the subway signs are works of art, city of rapturous light, ghosts of Hemingway and Stein at the Closerie, Simone and Jean-Paul at the Café de Flor, you and I, our little story nearly over, singing loudly as we can, in our tone deaf voices, against the coming rain and the following dark. -from Radiance (Word Press, 2005) |
©2015 Barbara Crooker